Friday, May 14, 2010

Grizzly Man

I've decided to write ... quickly. It is Friday night and your Mother is at work. I was searching for some noise to keep me company in the house since everyone else is snoozing in her crib (sideways I might add, I've already been in once to rotate the sleeper and fix the blankets). I found Grizzly Man, and put it on while I did the dishes. It is really a gorgeous film, however it made me feel overweight and somewhat detached from nature, which isn't a good place to be. Not that I want to live with the bears, but I just don't get out to the trails like I used to. Hopefully this summer...

The soundtrack to the movie is beautiful and sad - meant to embody the Alaskan landscape in music, it is mostly Richard Thomson on the guitar. If any of you want to play the guitar, I'll be all for it. I hope you play some musical instrument, even if it isn't the guitar, and even if it doesn't make you smarter, it's just a worthwhile thing. I am grateful for my very limited piano skills. I always secretly (or not so secretly?) wanted to be a rock star. I remember how grandpa used to play Linda Rondstat and Karla Bonoff songs on the piano - and sing along to them. I remember him being pretty good too, and I remember him doing it in the evening with the lights off.

Also, after the dishes I sent a message to an old professor via facebook, which tends to put me in a bad mood. I really don't like facebook, most of the people who post often are the same people who talk too much in real life, and are annoying. I always end up thinking I should remove myself from Facebook, but it has put me in touch with a few old friends.

I got a promotion this week, but so did a lot of other people, and with the change comes a healthy dose of internal uncertainty. I realized that while I want to move ahead, it also makes me feel guilty when it actually happens.